Tyler: In Darkness

Sunday, September 11, 2011

In Darkness

I am going to make this short.

Things have been bad around here.

Bad with Tyler.

And I am slipping into a bad depression.

Medications are not helping Tyler at this point. There are more negative affects than positive.

He was removed from class Friday. I don't know why yet.

Every day life has been full of crying, screaming and tears from him. Daddy and I can not do anything "right" for him. He is getting worse. I feel desperate.

By the end of the month we should have an ABA therapist in here.

-Tylers Mommy

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I Would Still Choose You

People have asked me what I would do
if I had the choice to change or cure you,
And often in times of worry or pain
I listen to that question, rebound in my brain.

I think of the days when you drive me to tears,
and how the future brings all sorts of fears,
Yesterday you wiped your nose on the
teacher's sleeve and what you did next
was hard to believe.

You took my best marker and drew on the wall
then ran outside naked, kicking a ball, You cried
when I told you, it was time for bed went kicking
and screaming and banging your head

This morning when the bus came, you would
not get on because there was a teacher, who was
the wrong one. At school they told me you bit a
small boy and smeared all your food with a
fateful of joy.

All night you were up, afraid of the dark,
in the morning you wanted to go to the park,
you tested my patience when you hit your
brother and said a bad word to your sweet
Grandmother.

At dinner you ate one chip and some fries
of course that should not be such a surprise,
From day one, you were picky
about what you would eat and
you never ate anything
like veggies or meat.

In the bathtub tonight you took soap and shampoo
got lost in the bubbles that hid you from view.
then you dumped all the water onto the floor
and cried when I told you, there would be no more!

But................................................................

When I look at you sleeping. I think and I muse
knowing there is no other, that I could choose
when they ask me that question of what I would do.
you know my sweet darling, it would always be you!!